Wide Open
September 27, 2008
This is not a book to be swallowed whole, like a grape you pop into your mouth, savoring its sweetness for an instant, then reaching for another.
WIDE OPEN: ON LIVING WITH PASSION AND PURPOSE is a book that inspires you to read and savor each line now, and then again later, plucking the words that resonate, disregarding at the moment words that don't apply. Dawna Markova invites you to grow not only older, but deeper.
She asks questions you can ponder or leave to your subconscious or answer now. "What is it that you want to do with the one, wild, precious thing called your life?" And "If you knew you couldn't fail, how would you live?"
I don't know about you, but I feel tears lift inside me. It's not about what I have to do today, it's that I need to know who I am today.
"What story are you telling yourself about the challenges in your life right now?"
Markova mentions "rut" stories, limiting beliefs, which numb us and keep us where we are, and "river" stories which carry you toward purpose and possibility.
I will be seeing three men today. The first will have his newest girlfriend in tow when we go to lunch -- I haven't seen him in nearly a year. He and I immediately, when we met five years ago, fell into a deep, darkly-intimate place, where we were inexorably linked, but we were a secret from the world. His choice. He is afraid, I think, of falling into that dark space again so he moved far away, and lines up light relationships, one right after another, and both keeps me at bay and wants me inside his life. I loved him, but if I am to love myself, I must befriend myself first. That's a new belief. "Befriending yourself involves telling yourself the complete truth about everything and challenging the thinking that says horrible things will happen as a result."
The second man is a man with whom I can talk about anything. He has invited me to pluck tomatoes from his vines, make salsa at his home, and eat steak and tomatoes after dusk.
And the third man -- new to my life -- will arrive well after dark to pick me up, and we will talk little, and simply enjoy each others' company.
Who am I really? In about an hour, I will dance -- that will center me. I want to dance purely, without limits. I want to say what I mean, but I don't know the answer to that. "What are the courageous conversations you need to have with yourself?"
This morning, I meditated, and found the little five-year old inside, and I held her and rocked her and promised I would listen to her, as I entered the dangerous world of men. Not dangerous to me, the grown woman, but dangerous to her, the little girl inside me.
"How do you make your life too small for yourself?" Living in the past. Although, when the past lives on in our bodies, it must be processed...to make way for the greater passion that is our road-map to our greatness.
"What are your inner gifts and talents...Aristotle said that one's purpose is merely a matter of knowing where one's talents and the needs of the world intersect?...What would have to happen for them to dance with each other?"
Markova says "What you love ennobles you."
And she says "How could you love this day as if you had never been hurt?"
I will take that question with me and go dance.
This is not a book to be swallowed whole, like a grape you pop into your mouth, savoring its sweetness for an instant, then reaching for another.
WIDE OPEN: ON LIVING WITH PASSION AND PURPOSE is a book that inspires you to read and savor each line now, and then again later, plucking the words that resonate, disregarding at the moment words that don't apply. Dawna Markova invites you to grow not only older, but deeper.
She asks questions you can ponder or leave to your subconscious or answer now. "What is it that you want to do with the one, wild, precious thing called your life?" And "If you knew you couldn't fail, how would you live?"
I don't know about you, but I feel tears lift inside me. It's not about what I have to do today, it's that I need to know who I am today.
"What story are you telling yourself about the challenges in your life right now?"
Markova mentions "rut" stories, limiting beliefs, which numb us and keep us where we are, and "river" stories which carry you toward purpose and possibility.
I will be seeing three men today. The first will have his newest girlfriend in tow when we go to lunch -- I haven't seen him in nearly a year. He and I immediately, when we met five years ago, fell into a deep, darkly-intimate place, where we were inexorably linked, but we were a secret from the world. His choice. He is afraid, I think, of falling into that dark space again so he moved far away, and lines up light relationships, one right after another, and both keeps me at bay and wants me inside his life. I loved him, but if I am to love myself, I must befriend myself first. That's a new belief. "Befriending yourself involves telling yourself the complete truth about everything and challenging the thinking that says horrible things will happen as a result."
The second man is a man with whom I can talk about anything. He has invited me to pluck tomatoes from his vines, make salsa at his home, and eat steak and tomatoes after dusk.
And the third man -- new to my life -- will arrive well after dark to pick me up, and we will talk little, and simply enjoy each others' company.
Who am I really? In about an hour, I will dance -- that will center me. I want to dance purely, without limits. I want to say what I mean, but I don't know the answer to that. "What are the courageous conversations you need to have with yourself?"
This morning, I meditated, and found the little five-year old inside, and I held her and rocked her and promised I would listen to her, as I entered the dangerous world of men. Not dangerous to me, the grown woman, but dangerous to her, the little girl inside me.
"How do you make your life too small for yourself?" Living in the past. Although, when the past lives on in our bodies, it must be processed...to make way for the greater passion that is our road-map to our greatness.
"What are your inner gifts and talents...Aristotle said that one's purpose is merely a matter of knowing where one's talents and the needs of the world intersect?...What would have to happen for them to dance with each other?"
Markova says "What you love ennobles you."
And she says "How could you love this day as if you had never been hurt?"
I will take that question with me and go dance.
Labels: Dawna Markova, Passion, purpose, transcending the trauma, WIDE OPEN: ON LIVING WITH PASSION AND PURPOSE
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